An Apology

In a long ago life and in two distant places, I taught college classes in composition. I tried to be helpful, but now that I’ve finally reached what passes for a belated adulthood, I want to apologize to my students. By now they too have reached full adulthood and perhaps forgotten that they ever had to take intro courses in composition. But here’s the problem. In teaching composition, I avoided or lost sight of what it means to write.

If I were to walk into a classroom now, I’d do a better job and departmental goals be damned. In the very first class I would ask each person to give a one word answer: What matters to you? I might make a list of the answers on the board. Then I would say, write for ten minutes about your answer. And I’d urge them to free write, non-stop, keep the pen moving. I’d hope they had pen and paper, but if they showed up with tablets, well, do the best you can.

And after the timer went off, I’d ask that they each underline what they like in what they have just written. Why that choice? Okay, now do it again, beginning with your favorite phrase, sentence, image.

“No five paragraph essay required. Take this work home with you and write what means something to you.” If someone asked about grades and things like punctuation and spelling and word count, I say that we’ll get around to those, maybe. But I’d also tell them that those rules are actually tools and when you have something to say, we’ll see if and where the tools help make your thoughts clear.

After decades of writing, I know how awful it must have felt to have to squeeze my words into a preordained form that has nothing to do with what I want my reader to see. I’m sorry, all you first year students. I didn’t mean to squish you into a corner and not let you out till after the end of the semester.

4 comments on “An Apology

  1. Dean Bielitz says:

    Ms. Douglass:

    As a former student I must (want to) say you did a great job of motivating your students. I learned how to be a better writer and am still using many of the skills you taught me.

    Apology not accepted – it was not necessary.

    Thank you for all the lessons and motivation.

    Dean – LSU-Shreveport


  2. This month in a “Wild Writing” workshop with Chloe Leisure, who has led poetry groups through CSU’s Osher Lifelong Learning Institute program, a selected poem is read out loud, you listen for something to stand out, tap you on a mental shoulder, somehow compel, then write eight or ten minutes without pen leaving paper. Then do this a couple-three more times. Just as you describe in your blog post, what comes forth has been personal and well worth the while.


  3. Right, it’s not new but still the best way to get some meaningful writing done.


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